To speak out my wishes and my priorities is the toughest thing for me. I can’t visualize exactly what I want from life. Accepting whatever life offers can be devastating sometimes. Some questions need to be answered. You can’t leave them on time and can proceed with the flow of life. If you don’t answer then your life will not move or else no one will allow it to move. You need to sit silently and then search for answer, have to shout hundred times in a hope that answer can escape from angel’s hand or may be from devil’s hand. Being dependent it becomes very difficult to me to see clear skies beyond clouds. Again and again life is teaching me a lesson to become independent. But every step of mine has made to lag.
Mistakenly I landed
inside unknown zone
to wither kept promises
marked on my palms
I swallowed hundred songs
to give melody to life
rather than a meaning
and what came out
was a melancholy
of echoes inside hovel
Can’t be there one, just one
even my soul
wish who can understand me!
The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you; It is when you don’t understand yourself.
I believe we spend our lifetimes learning to understand ourselves.
This is the work of the mind.
If only we could accept and love ourselves, then the understanding might be less painful.
This is the work of the heart/soul.
Enjoyed your meditation/poem.
Jim
Neilina – Thanks for stopping-by!
Jim, for some of the things acceptance is not the only way. Something pings you inside not to accept and even it causes pain, the pain makes you to understand life for the better. Don’t you think so?
Neilina, tht’s a very honest post for the blog..
the last line is…. right on!! tht’s the worst and most challenging of all things to do.. to make sense of what u want (or don’t want)
Neilina – Thanks Gauri for understanding!
last line is just too good
Neilina – Thanks Rambler!
Hmm… Same phase with me too. I am too chicken to write that and you are not.
Neilina – Chirag, I guess it requires more courage to keep it inside rather than to speak out. You are strong man!
same pinch here… is all i can say…
Neilina – Same piiiiiiiiiiiiiinch!
/-swallowed hundred songs to give melody to life
rather than a meaning
wow!
Neilina – Thanks Endevourme!
I’m sailing in the same boat as you and praying we survive
Neilina – U too??
same hre!have desperately searched for some answers wishing god might just peep into my dreams anyday n drop me an answer..evn a hint will do!
heights of hopes i guess..
the poem is very well writtn.evry word of it!
i cn relate myslf so much to it.evn a lifetime is less to knw thyself!
Neilina – But don’t you feel, it is good that we have hope. Hope makes all difference. I agree with you totally…..even a lifetime is less to know thyself!
I love this for its complete candidness, for its simplicity. That last line is an absolute truth.
Dont despair, write down what you want for your life and earnestly, without doubts about whether it will be yours or not, ask for it. Thoughts manifest, instead of saying what you dont want, focus exclusively on what you want. One way to do it is write down “I dont want…..” and then strike out the “dont” part and read it. Then make changes to exactly what it is that you wanted. This question “What is it that I want?” “where am I supposed to be?” used to bother me a lot when I was younger, Now, it bothers me but not as often…and sometimes when the universe grants me Clarity, I see I am exactly where I was supposed to be, even when I am hurting or in pain and that I have what I really ever wanted even if it seems much lesser than those around me. It is enough, at least for most times
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Its almost the weekend, Have a good one…
Neilina – Thanks so much Mysoul from deep down of my heart. You know what, I have started to ask, even if I know it is somewhat hard to get. And it feels great! Thanks so much!
As time makes you go through these phases, trust me its not doing anything but making you stronger. pay attention you will always know what you want…and you will know them, once you start chalkin out what you don’t want!
Neilina – Yup Deeps and you know what, it actually did! First time I stood for anything like hell…
It takes something to say it and it takes something more to just have it inside. But the point is what makes you feel better, and as deepsm25 said it only makes you stronger.
And the comments are just lovely over here, so was your poem.
When I am confused , but just think for clarity and it changes it all.
Keep blogging.
Neilina – Thanks Tauseef for stopping-by!
I agree with you. It really makes it stronger and not the leasrt, gives a way to your life!
By the way, have you heard the song “Unwritten” by Natasha Bedingfield.
Neilina – Nope, I haven’t….will check-it out!
I feel like I want to put that in my journal, passport, cell phone–wherever I can read it often–I feel like a soul traveling by some of those same phrases.
Neilina – Thanks Carolina!
Tauseef–funny you should mention that song. I once thought (when I was really young) that I am unwritten–and darn it–a song came out saying the same thing! So much for original thoughts.
Neilina – Now, I have to surely check it out!