'SUNSET' - JUST A RUSTED SUNRISE!!

Moving to a new wordpress…

neilina — Sun, 23 May 2010 06:01:05 +0000

Friends, I am moving to a new wordpress andwon’t be writing anymore on “Sunet – just a rusted sunrise”. I will drop-by in your blog world soon

Hope you all are doing good!!

By-mistake, if any of you is in love with my writing, please drop me a message for my new site

RAIN DROP

neilina — Thu, 13 May 2010 16:49:37 +0000

unlike her quiet silent morning song

this morning

the rain came with lyrical spring song

full of those gusty innocent smiles

and every tear like a bubble vanished

as if her life started loving rain even more

she carried each rain drop with perfection

and kept in her asylum of cloudy heart

not always you live for big things in life

but for the smallest thing

like for a rain drop

and to feel the greatest glory of God

and in the end

when purple melancholy was broken

with bright perfect love of sunshine

every rain drop in her heart

wrapped itself so perfectly

that it seemed

nothing has even been touched by her heartbeats

~neilina

Just a thought….

neilina — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 08:47:41 +0000

You don’t feel lonely when no-one is there but you feel lonely when you need and expect someone to be with you and that someone never takes a turn towards you.

Random Week Ramblings!

neilina — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 13:44:48 +0000

It really feels so great sometimes when you are in silence with the world, not bothering about what noises are saying about you. And you are a complete chatterbox with yourself. I am loving this feeling. It has given me confidence and happiness.

Few days back my mom told me about the condition of my grandpa. He is in his late eighties and suffering from some or the other kind of old age illness now. He got blood clot in the brain and few months back when I had gone to my native, he was having a bad time with his heart. When I saw him, I hugged him so tightly for death to surrender. I can count on my fingers the number of occasions we have talked. And now I am scared to see my life’s journey. I know with this growing age I won’t be having everyone with me. There won’t be anyone in my life to whom I can call grandpa. Sometimes you feel, it isn’t the time spend in the relationship that makes it strong, there is some other thing also. And I am missing him now.

Finally I enrolled myself into Reikhi class. I am really happy for this

The weekend was dedicated to Spa and Parlor. First time I am realizing the importance of money after visiting spa…

My office is shifted to different building with new project. Although I rarely know people here and but I am enjoying this invisibility. It is a different feeling when you are among strangers.

I have grown my nails. Doesn’t it feel beautiful to see your manicured hands

Friends are still the heartbeats for my happiness. I am really a sucker for this happiness. The moments that hold our songs sung together, the candle night dinner that we landed into, gossips about each and everyone, the gifts, the teasing………….all these have become my favorite memories. Somewhere you realize……..

You say someone:

~ Is a paradox.
~ Is an enigma.
~ Is wired weirdly.
~ Is a madcap.

But you believe someone:

~ Is a good friend.
~ Is a Godsend.
~ Is one who connects.
~ Is humility, humour, honesty personified

~~ And that’s when you want to start believing in *good Karma ~~

Read these lines somewhere. Cheers to friendship!!!

Happy Women’s Day!!!

CANDLE

neilina — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 10:35:35 +0000

there is still dark at the end of the tunnel

am i blind?…………may be!

but i am sure

to be growing blind with each passing day

here each moment create ripples

and i, a sucker of crests

lands in troughs

a fight then begins to drown me

inside my own mysteries

that you created inside me

but the candle that you lighted

inside the dark tunnel

is still glowing

happy as butterfly

shinning as golden twilight in purple haze

the glow makes me to remember our stories

and honestly, I don’t remember what we talked

do we?

but tell me what we talk about when we talk?

inept in giving excuses

i want to tell you

I am always made to believe

i am not wrong

even for the mysteries

that never happened

so I still hold the candle with your memories

thinking you are the right to happen in my life

but the flame just dances

keeping time to hide in waves

flickering mysteries of our memories

not bothering what all I want to say

ranging and roving

but steady, full of mirth

just like escaped you….

WEAKNESS

neilina — Wed, 24 Feb 2010 09:46:27 +0000

Sometimes I feel as if all the scratches left by the time has been rubbed. I am now a free, happy fully contented tranquil soul. But few days back, it so happened that I felt to tell everything to one of my friend. We are good friends but after his marriage limits appeared in our relationship. The time we used to spend together, our gossips, our roaming, everything condensed. Anyways every relationship changes with time and it is best to change ourselves accordingly. I don’t know what made me to share everything with him and one day I told him everything about the latest happenings in my life. He didn’t say anything…..no words to soothe you! Just nothing! But he just kept his hand on my head. I love when others keep their hands on my head. I felt so weak and felt how much still I need care and support of someone. I still haven’t grown-up to face everything alone what my life has to offer. I just wanted to hug him there only, on the road and wanted to cry on his shoulder. But I saw the space that time has created. And I continued to walk like a programmed robot.

A thought……

neilina — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 06:52:15 +0000

Sometime I just wish that I would have told everything about my life to everyone and I would have enough strength not to repent later for what all I did.

Smile of the sky :)

neilina — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 18:28:25 +0000

Even if I can never able to see what your eyes say

but I can feel that your smile says everything

telling me how special I am in your life

Isn’t it?

Pic taken from my PG….. today’s moon!

YOUR STEPS

neilina — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 11:16:23 +0000

i have always seen

our footsteps marked on sand

with rusted sunset holding our breath.

and now

when i go alone on that seashore

i always find your footmarks

on turning back

those tidal waves still caress them

as if you are their child

or may be they have their own way

of remembering who once stepped with them.

in same need as God of love

i also want to lay my steps

on those marked steps of yours

but every time those tidal waves

throw me high up in the air

where my heart chokes

with thoughts of meeting the horizon

……may be i was an unwelcome guest in your life

or……may be welcomed one but I overstayed

Sometimes i wonder

what if i again see you somewhere

in that shade of rusted sunset!

will then we still be presuming

being ‘US’ is a mistake

or we would have accepted

it doesn’t matter to our lives!

….but tell me once

which is more worse?

Blind Haziness!

neilina — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 01:08:51 +0000

When I closed my eyes yesterday night, some hazel dreams started dancing in the deep darkness in-front of my eyes. But all I could see were those murky dreams that were just randomly jumping rather than dancing with those mesmerizing steps. And then with all my strength I tried to clear this smoggy scene and at the end all I could see were zillion twinkling dots telling me to shape my dream. I took one dot, joined it to another and then to another and then to another……..

Many painted dreams now invisibly rest besides me. And today when I tried to admire them, all I could feel and see is that they are not fitting in the space. I don’t know what this space is all about. May be it is all that my heart can think of, may be it is all that my eyes can see, may be it is all those emotions that I can feel or may be it is just a reflection of some fanatical dreams on a thin ice. I am clueless! And today only I got to read this message for me…..

“… that when you pursue your dreams, every second is an encounter with God. Following your dreams opens your heart allowing God to enter and fill you with bliss.”

I am here now with my dreams, struggling hard to fit them into my defined space. Many have been crippled and few have been smashed in this trial. I don’t know where God will enter and if He can fill cracks with his bliss. Just with a hope…..Amen!