Archive for April, 2008


I always love surprises. And now the time is coming when my most important surprise will be revealed to me. I don’t know how long will it take for that surprise (don’t know if I have to call it surprise) to come. My parents have started searching a guy for me. I don’t know if I am ready for the start of new phase of life or not.

I had chat with my cousion. Today he went to see some girl. But he didn’t like the girl. He is half confused. According to him, the girl lacks feminine characteristics. He didn’t mean look, complexion and her dressing sense. He met girl just like an informal meeting. He was telling me he didn’t like the way the girl was walking. There should me something which reflects feminine characteristics and the girl was lacking in that. He wants my advise on this and I myself don’t know what exactly to say.

Every person has some dreams about his/her life partner. But there are many things on which we have to make compromise. I should not call it compromise, but love – the love to accept the differences. My mind is addling me. I am thinking how it feels if someone rejects you or when you reject someone. Isn’t love marriages are good in this?

If some boy will be coming to see me, I can’t even imagine, how many things will be running in this mind! If I think about myself, I can see many negative things about me. Can in arrange marriage is it possible for someone to accept me like that?

But, how it goes……..if I get acceptance or rejection………I am looking forward for the new phase coming in my life. This wait is making my stomach to giggles.

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A special mate to me would be,

Someone who is there for me.

When I’ve lost my glow,

When I’m feeling low.

And who is there when I feel high,

And who I never want to say goodbye.

Hve you seen your sunset fade beneath the rain cloud?

Have you ever chased your dreams around?

Did you ever think that life was just a road of lonely days?

Thinking that life will never go your way?

All the times I’ve cried and tried to reach up to the sky,

but nothing works until I look into your eyes.

Have you ever had a sunrise promising your daylight,

But you find it hard to find your guiding light.

Now that rain cloud is fading,

And the promised daylight is arriving.

But I will carry on with life day by day,

Picking up my dreams along the way.

My life will one day be complete and this fake smile will disappear,

And slowly the real will start to appear

And this is all thanks to you,

With all the things you say and do.

Thank you for all you’ve done for me,

Your something very special to me.

You have chose me and of you I am a part,

And I hope you never leave my heart.




4th and 5th April’08 ->  Yesterday…..day was okay! Nothing special happened that I can write. I am planning to go for Art of Living for the coming vaccations, but may parents are also planning to come here. 🙂 Lets see, if I can go for it or may be next time. Today, again I went to office…….so stupid of me, I forgot my cell charger in office. I finished all my pending home tasks……….washing clothes, cleaning my room. I am feeling happy to be in this room now. 🙂 Thank You God.

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This article I found on my computer while searching for some file. I don’t remember when I have pasted it in word. How many such articles I have kept with me but I don’t get the time to go through it. Sorry God, I will try to improve on this.

For some of these points I don’t really understand why they are necessary for women.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … one old love she can imagine going back to … and one who reminds her how far she has come …..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to… A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour …A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … a youth she’s content to leave behind…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … a past juicy enough that she’s looking forward to retelling it in her old age.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra …

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … one friend who always makes her laugh… and one who lets her cry …

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family …

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored …

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE … a feeling of control over her destiny …

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … how to fall in love without losing herself …

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship …

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … when to try harder … and when to walk away …EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … that she can’t change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents …EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … that her childhood may not have been perfect … but its over …

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … what she would and wouldn’t do for love or more …
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … how to live alone … even if she doesn’t like it …

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … whom she can trust, whom she can’t, and why she shouldn’t take it personally …

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … where to go … be it to her best friend’s kitchen table … or a charming inn in the woods … when her soul needs soothing …

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW … what she can and can’t accomplish in a day … a month … and a year.

My day 3rd April – Day was okay only. I did nothing in my office. I was not feeling even to look at my work. Almost half of the day went in meetings only. In home also it was boring. I don’t know why God is giving me these types of days, there is nothing from which I can learn.

Blessings:- Day was somewhat okay as compared to 2nd April. I got appreciation in the team meeting. But don’t know why I am not satisfied even after all this. 🙂

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The desire which makes my heart to think and mind to feel, the turbulance sends electricity through my body. I am changed and all the priorities in my life have changed.  I am really tired of watching my footsteps, to think about all my actions, to think that if I did that thing correctly or not. I know I am not free. I am trying to become free. But the more I try to be free, I am failing to keep track of my footsteps. I feel watching my footsteps earlier didn’t give me anything and I should not track my footsteps this time also. But if I don’t do this, I feel suffocated. Like, I am in a tight container, I can’t breathe and my heart beat is going down and down.

Blessings of 2nd April – I think not even at one moment I felt blessed. Day was suffocating. Thank God it passed.

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wow! Today is Fool’s Day and I am celebrating this fool day with my first post. I feel it is sometimes pleasing to think oneself as fool as no one is perfect. If you know beforehand this, you will not feel gloomy and doleful in many of the situations. But keep this secret with you only and act as if everything is on your side and cherish even if something happens.

Today in the morning my friend fooled me. She told that there was horrible accident of car happened near to our gate and I went outside to see only to realise that it was just a prank to make me fool. 🙂 In our office also, on our home page, a contest came. There was explanation of many things that need to be done. We were continuing to read it as the prize was a chance to meet Deepika Padukone. Atlast, we came to know it was a part of Fool’s Day. This all makes me feel good when we give importance to all the small things in life, celebrating each and every day of our life.

Today we went out for our team lunch. It was okay, for me 50-50, neither good nor bad. In the morning I received gift from my best friend – a chyme bell. It was surprise for me. Thanks so much sweety!

Good things -> I got mail from my manager appreciating my work. I called my sweet friend. My Bhaiya called me and it was great talking to him. He was trying to fool me by saying that his engagement got fixed. I managed all my jewellery boxes. I got gift from my friend.

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