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I will not ever tell

those words

those secrets

to myself

Let them remain

bury deep in my heart

Let them mingle

with some rhyme of a song

I will not ever tell

who am I?

who are you to me?

to myself

Let the wait end

you to hear unspoken words

Let the wait end

to celebrate tryst of desires and realities

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How you wish to die? In the silence of the night while sleeping or drowning in some sea or meting with an accident and in one shot, you are gone! Anyhow, mostly I have seen death with pain. And while going I don’t want to suffer in pain. That pain will be extreme I guess, for it takes us to new world. Pain is attached when new beginning is made. I wish death to come in my sleep and in deep silence to engulf me that I myself don’t know what is happening.

My Grandma was totally opposite. She always prayed death to come slowly and slowly. She wanted to experience every moment and wanted to know how it feels when death comes. She prayed God to bestow her with illness that allows death to come in pace. God granted her wish and gave her  Cancer. There was one more reason for the wish, for her husband also died from cancer and she wanted to experience her husband pain. We did not know about the wish until she herself told us in her last hours. And told us not to feel heavy hearted and desolate. According to her, she was satisfied from life and there was nothing that she could have wished for.

She told us to chant God’s name and to keep her husband’s handkerchief near to her heart when she would be in death bed. She listed all the things that are part of death ritual in one notebook and explained my mom and uncle how to carry out all the rituals exactly. She asked my uncle to whiten the house with white-wash as many people would be coming to see her in the last hours and never had she wanted anyone to comment about the cleanliness of her house. She prepared herself and everyone for the departure. The scenes still flash infront of eyes and without any emotions in my heart, tears comes in my eyes. I miss her. My Grandma – the strongest woman I have known in my life.

Death will come when it has to! But which wish is better? You never know when God will grant.

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