Archive for April 15th, 2009

I am always mesmerized by the occult magic, that feathers, crystals, music, candles. It feels as if I am in different world and some angel will appear from the clouds to tell me something that is very important for my life. Well, this post is not of my gibberish talks but the conversation that happened between me and Tarot Reader J. There are very very few people of this profession for whom I feel respect from my heart. And others are smart enough only to know how to trick people. While reading my tarot cards, our conversation took a turn towards relationships and went like this……..

J – Hmm…..why you want to go for arrange marriage?

Me – Well, I always wanted to go for arrange marriage. If I would have felt love for anyone, then would have thought the other way.

J – Never it happened to you that by seeing someone you got that special trigger and your heart starts pumping and hands sweating.

Me – No, never! Does this ever happened to you? I never felt that feeling.

J – Oh yeah, for me it had happened many many times…..(after seeing my surprised look)….may be I am very sensitive! (Does that trigger relate somewhere to sensitivity?)

Me – Don’t know! But is this trigger not fake? How can you be so sure that trigger relates to love? Even if the trigger appears at one moment, there are chances for it go in the next few moments. How can someone be so sure about unsurety?

J – Why are you thinking about making trigger that serious? Feel it, Open yourself to other and Let Go.

Me – How can I let go my words if I know that there developed a bond when I had expressed myself for the trigger.  And just for the sake of fake trigger, I don’t want!

J – That trigger is not fake. Feelings are not fake and you have felt that trigger. It was inside you even just for few seconds. When you will try to avoid that trigger then that is flimflam.

Me – I don’t want to rely on feelings, when feelings just come and go and doesn’t stay. And if I will make a go then making someone to get hurt, is the greatest sin.

J – It is not like this. If someone gets hurt, it is because their lack of understanding. We all are on a journey where others are not linked. You are alone here. Love yourself and that’s it!

Me – For me it is very difficult and I don’t have any regrets for my thinking.

And thankfully this topic stopped, to land-up into the career talk.

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