I never imagined You!

I never imagined you

with lips in shades of blue

where spasmodic laughter

has lived zillion times

and

with those wrinkles circling your eyes

eyes that still hold the thrill of radiance

of early morning sunshine from pines

I never imagined you

with a heart of tickling heartbeats

that cloaks all joy of zillion daydreams

daydreams not of you, not of me, but of ‘us’

and

with those crimpled hands

that still holds all the secret promises

mesmerizing our eyes with golden twilight

I never imagined

those cheeks, blenched beneath freckles

as if love is curling-up in the softness

and then flying away into indigo clouds of night

But I imagined…………….

me in-front of you

lying there lifeless

And

I imagined

every tear

falling tenderly upon my heart

burning the flame

may be of love’s radiating brillance

And then ……………………..

I stopped imagining

Me without You

~neilina

P.S. For the prompt “One Single Impression”. Poem is about the impression left by the imagination!

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Beauty!

My current desktop walpaper……

Folsom sea! Pic taken by a man 🙂 …………..heaven must be like this!!

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Eight wonders of Neilina! :)

It seems like I am taking a dip in this tag world. It is always a fun to think about the things just about you and you only!! Amrit has tagged me here and zestfully I have taken it. So, here goes the tag……….

8 TV Shows I Love to Watch

It has been ages that I have seen any timeless tv show since the moment I landed in Pune. Hmm….if I have to think of 8 TV shows that I love to watch anytime if I get a chance…..then the list is:

Sarabhai v/s Sarabhai

Lolla Kutty Channel V

Takshi Castle on Pogo Channel

Mile jab hum tum

And love to watch songs, songs and songs…..

8 Favorite Places to Eat

Barbeque Nation (Bangalore)

Gramin (Bangalore)

Pizza Hut

Candle night dinner at Leela (Bangalore)

Falak KC Residency (Jammu)

Hari Palace (Jammu)

Polynation (Bangalore)

Paranthas at Fab India (Bangalore)

8 Things that happened yesterday

Talked with my fiance over phone for a long time and felt happy

Had gulabjamun in lunch

Chatted with a friend after a long time

Got Addicted to the song ‘Zihale–Masti Maqam Branjis‘

Changed my gtalk pic and posted pics in orkut

Had a long chat with mom and dad

Landed in twitter after a long time

Thanked God for my happy mood

8 Things I look forward to

My hairs to grow to shoulder length and then have a nice hair cut

Starting with my looped program of joining gym

To be in home with mom and dad

October to come

A new mobile

To Hug my mom, Oh….I miss her!!!

Shopping

To write poems on subjects hanging in my head

8 Things I love about Winter

Foggy days

Warmer foggy breath

No tension of weight gain

Scarfs tied around the neck

Cold hands and feet

Holding hot coffee cup

Days getting shorter

Rajai

8 Things on my Wish List

Never to die

To have DSLR

To go alone t0 some unknown place

Spending a month with mom-dad

To meet N again in my life

To love with all my heart and soul

Toyoto Corolla

A Platinum Pendant

8 Things I am passionate About

Songs

Poems

Books

Antique Jewellery

Friendship

Scarfs

Old Snaps

Candles

Flowers

8 Words or Phrases I often use

wow!

ek dum mast

newpinch

wahi tow

aarey bhai

bas chal raha hai

8 Things I have learned from my past

No matter what the world thinks, you need to be best in your eyes.

When the things turn-out to be at their worst, still the hope lingers.

Assumptions are poison to the relationships.

Always push through the fear of ‘what might me’. For the truth is not as horrible as what the mind is left to imagine.

Even I don’t say ‘I love you’ so often, but my God means everything to me.

Letting go doesn’t mean giving-up.

Crying sometime is the best way to give peace to heart.

Getting into loneliness is a chain reaction. The more you feel lonelier, the more you cut yourself from others.

8 Places I Would Love to Go or See or Visit

Ireland

Eastern part of India

Folsom Sea

Any unkown place

Paris

Goa

Kailash Mansarovar

Hawaii

Cape Town

8 Things I Currently Need or Want

A hot cup of tea

A nap

Some songs in background

My mobile to ring

This tag to finish-off

a fun-fill chat and masti with friends

a surprise!!

And………..F-I-N-I-S-H-E-D!  🙂

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Woman!!

From my old box:-

I am a woman, a body subsuming the universe

Melancholy of love, passion, sorrow and desire

I am in the creation and in the annihilation

I am woman, a dancer of this whole enchilada

Ardency of your soul’s essence

Emotion, devotion, adulation and affection

I am a woman, part of God, queen of creation

~neilina

A woman of Strength……….

• A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape, but….. A woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape.
• A strong woman isn’t afraid of anything, but…. A woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear.
• A strong woman won’t let anyone get the best of her, but…. A woman of strength gives the best of her to everyone.
• A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future, but….. A woman of strength realizes life’s mistakes can also be God’s blessings and capitalizes on them.
• A strong woman walks surefootedly, but….. A woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls.
• A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face, but….. A woman of strength wears grace.
• A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey, but…. A woman of strength has faith that in the journey she will become strong.

Source – here

P.S. – pic of rose from my garden!

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Celebration is when….

you enter into the birthday gurl’s room with a bang of ‘dhan-te-nan-dhan-an-an’

string of guitar breaks just with the onset of ‘happy birthddddd…….’

giving all sorts of jerky and nutty blessings to birthday gurl.

cake is not meant to eat but to celebrate Holli, that too at 1 o’clock in night.

being happy for free facial with creamy cake.

giving birthday bumps and then arguing for hitting hard.

dancing with all kinda of non-sense steps at full volume.

Some days are just meant to have never-ending celebration…………

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Tag – Me At 10!!

Tauseef has tagged me to tell ten honest things about myself. So, here goes the tag………

1. I feel very uncomfortable to talk to people with their goggles. I feels like a big curtain is hanging between us. I am more into thinking through and interpreting the meaning from eyes and face expressions rather than what the words carry.

2. I always thank God for getting auto early morning while going to office. I don’t remember anything other than this for what I thank God everyday (saying loudly)!

3. I have started keeping myself isolated from the world. In-fact, I am feeling that my world is shrinking. I am growing with my thoughts and into my thoughts.

4. It is very difficult for me to choose between my values and expectations on one side and the people whom I love on other. Many-a-times, I have faced difficulities to choose one of them and it always lands me into guilt and insecurity.

5. My recent wish list includes Toyota corolla and everyday I am falling in love with this car.

6. I miss late night-long-talks with friends.

7. I am puzzled by the fact that some people hate to get forward mails. I love them and it is the best time-pass for me in office 🙂

8. My mood is lifted just by seeing blue.

9. I long to see a soul, a ghost (hopefully not), an angel or anyone not from this world.

10. I love to receive cards as gifts with nice wordings….ek dum dil se!

F-I-N-I-S-H-E-D!!!!

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Notes to myself – 2

Love…………….

How do I get love? I have it. I must drop my definitions of love. Love is not saying nice things to people or smiling or doing good deeds. Love is love. Don’t strive for love, be it.

All my life I have made it complicated, but it is so simple. I love when I love. And when I love, I am my self.

“All I want is to be loved” – Wanting to be loved, to be lovable, is not really a desire for how I want to be, but for how I want others to be.

~Hugh Prather

P.S. – Pics from my PG! ‘Clouds before Rain’. (Bangalore, 7:25 pm)

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“US”

i stepped once and

you stepped twice

and that was how

a journey was

covered of

thousand miles

in silence salty lap 

when eyes were closed

i laid there besides you

counting every dream

that took my breath away

and took my twinkle away

they took me down

they took me up

it was neither you nor i

i knew it was just ‘US’

i stepped once and

you stepped twice

and finally

in the darkness of night

we found a moon

with a star

shinning bright

and that was how

we finished our journey

of thousand miles

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Let the Heaven Wait for ME

My days in paradise are over

Stars are falling on me

Banality is taking over my life

But I don’t want to go…….

Let the heaven wait for me!

They always say it’s a new learning

An adventure, an important step

But I am happy being a crinkled yellow page

Atleast I am a lesson to learn

I don’t want to go

Let the heaven wait for me!

I aged, I faded and now I  am dying

But I haven’t sold my soul

I might just fathom the reason to live

Are we here to say good-bye only?

Each moment to me is a new beginning

I have to live in rain and dance for you

Please, I don’t want to go………..

Let the heaven wait for me!

PS – Lines from my old box!

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Tum

A try in Hindi……

raat ki andheri mein, anchal mein simatker

ghumsum si baithi rehti ho

aaker kuch kehta hu tumse

tow aapni palako se jawab de deti ho

 

har tasveer tumhara chehra aab deekhati hai

baat karne tumse baithta hu tow

aankhon se muskaraker

chup si khadi hoker mujhe dekhne lagti ho

 

aayina deekhta hu mein, tumhara tabasum simat jata hai

haar ker baithne lagta hu mein

tow haath pakadker mujhko

chand se milvane le jati ho

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