Just a thought….

You don’t feel lonely when no-one is there but you feel lonely when you need and expect someone to be with you and that someone never takes a turn towards you.

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A thought……

Sometime I just wish that I would have told everything about my life to everyone and I would have enough strength not to repent later for what all I did.

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Tum

A try in Hindi……

raat ki andheri mein, anchal mein simatker

ghumsum si baithi rehti ho

aaker kuch kehta hu tumse

tow aapni palako se jawab de deti ho

 

har tasveer tumhara chehra aab deekhati hai

baat karne tumse baithta hu tow

aankhon se muskaraker

chup si khadi hoker mujhe dekhne lagti ho

 

aayina deekhta hu mein, tumhara tabasum simat jata hai

haar ker baithne lagta hu mein

tow haath pakadker mujhko

chand se milvane le jati ho

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In fight…..

• with loneliness
• to know the meaning of relationship
• to divert my mind
• in knowing one name to whom I can make a call
• to know what to do next
• and atlast………..with myself!!

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Inside Web!!

Just a thought….

Sometime it feels that life is nothing more than to accept the things that doesn’t matter and to let go the things that really matters to you!

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PONDERING…

I can see love in his eyes, but there seems to be fakeness

I can see hatered in his eyes, but there seems to be trueness

Should I accept his love with fakness or his trueness of hatered?

And at last……………..I accepted his trueness, even of hatered!

Sorry Guys, for not being around for so loooong. Life has just taken a turn with my engagement. I have to write so many things, about the questions that life has given me. And I know, it requires lot of patience for my answers to come. Thanks to all of you for dropping by in this small world of  my ponderings.

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REALIZATION?

You cannot say ‘no’ to the people you love, not often. That’s the secret. And when you do, it has to sound like ‘yes’. Or you have to make them say No. 

~Don Vito Corleone

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DREAMS AND HOPES!

Motionless……..

I am standing

cherubically staring

heap of my tacit dreams

lying in fictitious realm

radiating serenity

in every thought.

My dead dreams

do breathe silence

in matrix of dead hopes!

Vagrantly…………

I am kissing

all radiant hopes

floating in balmy air

Not knowing from where

desolate parcel voyaging

with no dreams can dust-off.

My lively hopes

do twinkle endlessly

in dark shadow of hollow dreams!

There are some dreams for which no hope is attached. Reality doesn’t allow me to do it. They can never come true. But I do breathe these dreams. After all, life is not where all the dreams are to be fulfilled. They still give me happiness when I think about them. The childhood dreams, teenage dreams, career dreams and so on! Time always sets a limit on them. Dreams without hopes are still my life. There are some hopes for which I never dreamt. They are coming, fruiting in my mind and staying there. It never occurred to me to link dreams to these hopes. Hopes without dreams! And I have also found a bridge linking dreams and hopes. Living with this trinity of dream and hope sometimes make me to think hard.

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OCTOBER RAMBLINGS!

October bought for me 3Fs – Friends, Fun and Family. The best thing was that I became more confined in my present rather than to think about the past tensions or future worries. It was good to live in your present. This month saw of me less emotional. My thinking aspect somewhat disappeared and more I became inclined to, ‘Whatever happens, happens for good’.

• The month started with my first ever trip with friends since I landed here in Bangalore. It was really a fun; be it either venturing into water of Balmuri Falls or sight seeing of Temples near Mysore. This was the first time that my plan fruited after looooong hours of planning. Overall the trip was a fun. And the great oath that has come out is to go on a trip every month. Lets see, how many months can we go on accomplishing this pledge.
• I dawned into unnecessary tensions and many-a-times diverted myself but thank to God, this month made me to come-out in just few minutes. Loneliness stayed away from me and whenever it pinged me, I found myself with the friends to wipe it away.
• The support, care and love of friends really filled my heart. Be it in office, PG or my blogger friends. It really felt at peace when friend pinged me directly; asking me the reason rather than simply to read the blog, when friends bought medicines and scolded me for my illness, when they called me every time for dinner and lunch, when they cheered me up whenever I felt dull, when H bought home food for me……….Salute to Friendship! 🙂
• I enjoyed being pampered at home. I bow my parents for their care and simply I am thinking I can never be even 1% mom as my mom is! Moms are really like this only! The part that filled my heart with tears and a fear that girls leave their parent’s home after marriage. This happened when my father was talking to me and in next moment, tears came in his eyes and after sometime my mom also started crying. How to tell them I am here only and not going anywhere now!
• I had my first Vodka 🙂 Although there were just few drops (I guess) in one glass of Coke and I didn’t feel anything, but I am happy with the thought that coke had vodka. And I want to give again one shot to see how it feels to be in Full Nasha 😀
• I am with these three wishes for this month – to do nose piercing, to have a rose tatoo on my left ankel, to buy SLR camera and to go on sky diving.
• Finished reading of ‘The five people you meet in heaven’ by Mitch Albom and ‘The Monk who sold his Ferrari’ by Robin Sharma. Again these books have taken me to different world. You are new you. I just wish when I can get the courage and wisdom of Julian in ‘Monk who sold his Ferrari’ and clarity of thoughts like Eddie in ”The five people you meet in heaven’ even after my death.

Lets see, how this month of November goes! Good Luck to me!

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ENOUGH LOVE!

And…………

I told him

“I Love You”

shrinking words

into life

helter-skelter

he nooded

trying to find words

to ask me ‘WHY?’

And………..

I stood there

thinking zillion reasons

to transcend feelings

I looked deep

into his eyes

and shouted

“Is this enough?”

And…………

he moved away

may be to dead end

only to send echo

“Is Love Enough for us?”

And…………

Breathless I stood there

craving to know………..

What ‘enough’ is!

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