Sometimes I feel as if all the scratches left by the time has been rubbed. I am now a free, happy fully contented tranquil soul. But few days back, it so happened that I felt to tell everything to one of my friend. We are good friends but after his marriage limits appeared in our relationship. The time we used to spend together, our gossips, our roaming, everything condensed. Anyways every relationship changes with time and it is best to change ourselves accordingly. I don’t know what made me to share everything with him and one day I told him everything about the latest happenings in my life. He didn’t say anything…..no words to soothe you! Just nothing! But he just kept his hand on my head. I love when others keep their hands on my head. I felt so weak and felt how much still I need care and support of someone. I still haven’t grown-up to face everything alone what my life has to offer. I just wanted to hug him there only, on the road and wanted to cry on his shoulder. But I saw the space that time has created. And I continued to walk like a programmed robot.
Archive for February, 2010
WEAKNESS
Posted in confusion, personal, words on February 24, 2010| 5 Comments »
A thought……
Posted in thought on February 18, 2010| 17 Comments »
Sometime I just wish that I would have told everything about my life to everyone and I would have enough strength not to repent later for what all I did.
Smile of the sky :)
Posted in snaps on February 17, 2010| 6 Comments »
Even if I can never able to see what your eyes say
but I can feel that your smile says everything
telling me how special I am in your life
Isn’t it?
Pic taken from my PG….. today’s moon!
YOUR STEPS
Posted in poem, relationship, thoughts, writing on February 15, 2010| 10 Comments »
i have always seen
our footsteps marked on sand
with rusted sunset holding our breath.
and now
when i go alone on that seashore
i always find your footmarks
on turning back
those tidal waves still caress them
as if you are their child
or may be they have their own way
of remembering who once stepped with them.
in same need as God of love
i also want to lay my steps
on those marked steps of yours
but every time those tidal waves
throw me high up in the air
where my heart chokes
with thoughts of meeting the horizon
……may be i was an unwelcome guest in your life
or……may be welcomed one but I overstayed
Sometimes i wonder
what if i again see you somewhere
in that shade of rusted sunset!
will then we still be presuming
being ‘US’ is a mistake
or we would have accepted
it doesn’t matter to our lives!
….but tell me once
which is more worse?
Blind Haziness!
Posted in blank, confusion, feelings, Life, thoughts, words, writing on February 13, 2010| 4 Comments »
Realizations….
Posted in girl, Life, relationship, thoughts on February 11, 2010| 6 Comments »
- I always believed that communication is the most vital part of any relationship. Well, it seems sometimes we share so much with someone but something from no-where always creeps-in creating a wall between the two. And sometimes even when the two communicates like anything, some words still remain unspoken creating a wall. I realized I am still bad in expressing myself to others.
- You can’t have any relationship without limits. I thought I could have and then a try to have one, made the relationship to move away from my life.
- Relationship is still the most difficult subject to think upon. I really don’t want to think!!
- I realized the new changed me. Earlier Neilina who always wanted someone by her side now loves to live alone. She doesn’t believe now in soulmates. I was surprised by myself only as to how I started accepting all the things coming in my life.
- Facebook is addictive than orkut. And now it is happening, that I am not opening my orkut account for many days.
- My cooking is not so bad 🙂 I have started liking my own dishes even when others are still giving me rank of 4 or 5.
- And I want to thanks from deep of my heart to Rambler and BlueMist who are there with me since the time I started my blog on wordpress. Thanks Guys!